Time is running out

Every day I wake up with only one thought – “Enjoy today to the fullest, time is running out”. No!! I am not deceased and I don't foresee any disaster (Well!!! Uncertainty can definitely play its role). This feeling of “Missing-Ness” keeps shouting loud and clear into my ears. It’s called the Payback time.

In pursuit of my ambition, it was MY decision to go overseas. It took me a whole year to plan for my Studies. Now that everything is set and the time is soon arriving for me to leave, this feeling of missing everything is eating me up. Will this feeling vanish????

Days never get freed. Office, Shopping, Medical checkups, Meeting friends –the time keeps rolling. In spite of the day filled with every other activity, a moment of silence makes me feel very nostalgic.

Every day spent with my mom, every ride in my bike, every food that I eat, every friend I get to meet increases my longing to turn back from my ambition. The thought of leaving the surrounding I have known from my birth is swallowing me.

Will this feeling pass away??? Will my new surrounding entice me with this feeling of Home???? Hope I get to find answers for my question soon L

RAIN

First Poem written by me when I was in 12th grade :) :)
Happy that I have found it :)

RAIN

WHEN I AM WAITING FOR U,

U MAKE THE SUNSHINE GROW.

MY EYES BATTLING WITH THE LIDS TO SEE U,

BUT U COME IN THE NIGHT AND LEAVE WITHOUT A CLUE.

MY HEART GETTING WARM TO WELCOME THE THUNDER,

BUT U BLOW THE WIND WITH THE HELP OF A RUDDER.

AFTER A WHILE THERE U COME,

MAKING MY HEART DUMB.

BY SEEING U……

THE SORROWS OF MY LIFE ARE WIPED AWAY;

LEAVING ME IN A RIGHT WAY.

DO NOT STAY HERE ALL THROUGH THE YEAR AND

MAKE THE SOUND OF THE DROPLET GET BORED TO HEAR.

ONCE IN A WHILE MAKE YOUR WAY THROUGH AND

ONE DAY TAKE MY BREATH AWAY WITH U

SO THAT I CAN VISIT THE WORLD BEFORE U DO.

My Lunch

My (Diet) Lunch

Knock Knock!!!!! The Communicator light throws up at 12.50. Time for ONLY 2 chapattis, is what I decide on.  A bliss feeling runs through my Stomach, making it eager and ravenous. I immediately respond saying “Am Starting :)” to my friends. “Here I come” I say to the Cafeteria. “On your Mark”, “Get set”,” Go” is how my tummy feels by this time.

With great difficulty, I find a place for my entire gang. As my friends start pouring in, so does the Lunch Boxes on the table making my appetite grow large. I remind myself about the Chapatti deal. As the aroma from the different varieties of food begs me to taste it :(  , I could literally feel my dietitian standing next to me.

 Biryani, Rajma Chawal, Paneer Butter Masala, Sambar Rice versus JUST 2 chapattis?? My mind wavers!!!!!!!!!! My Friend’s Father-in-law’s Birthday special “Gulab Jamoon” is the final culprit for my utmost temptation. Sorry!! Old deals are long forgotten. I pounce onto every Box present as if there is no tomorrow.

Before the ecstatic feeling surrounds me fully, my tummy size makes me feel like;

“Mary had a little Lamb, Little Lamb,

And I swallowed it whole” :( :(